surprise ;)

What a week! Been busy with Dance Party, Camping, and Fundraise. So much fun, so intense.

I want to share what God had been doing in my life. This last 2 week we have "Fear of the Lord" and "Lordship", and next week we have "Authority and Submission". So intense, so challenging. But I learn so much.. I learn so much how to be obey.

2 weeks a go on Wednesday, I can't sleep. Thinking about all the fees. And I get up, stay awake until 3.30AM, which is crazy cause I have morning exercise at 6AM. I talk a lot with God.. And God told me to share in front of the class about how He provide me until I got here. I felt crazy! I never want to do that. Share in front of 60 people. But God keep telling me that.

And finally.. Last Monday I shared!! I have my note with me, but suddenly when I get to the front, it's gone.. So I spoke without any note, and I'm not even shaking-it's weird. And I baked cookies for my classmate. For the first time I baked! With a help from my leaders and Gabby-my Indonesian friend. This cookies is amazing. I dont have money to buy it. I talked to a person who raise her money through cookies, and I pray to God I need 20 dollar for the ingredients. And suddenly one day, this person give me all the ingredients! But when I pray, God told me to gave it all to my classmate. So I did it! 28 February 2011, I shared in front of the class and gave the cookies!! :)

I felt so crazy to shared in front of the class about what I need. But I did it. After I shared, Quenton - my school leader, said to all the class to pray for me. And we all together pray for me. It's amazed me how I see all my friends support me in prayer. How God gave me words to speak. How God gave me strength to shared.

So, I want you guys to pray about:
-Finances. Yes yes ;) After I shared, the money just non stop coming. It's crazy. I see breakthrough in this area, a lot. Last wednesday, I woke up, and just felt like: "aaah, get closer to finances due." But God said: "Why wont you say: this is another day to see more money coming, this is the day to see My Greatness?". I felt so sorry for that, and now every morning, I says this is another day to get more money. And it's real! I see it coming everyday, even just 25 dollar.
I just got my visa for my 1st place! And will process my visa for Iceland this week, so I need to see more money to coming soon ;)
I still need 300AUD for my lecture fees. And 5900AUD for my outreach. Just in 1 week, God provide 1800AUD for me. That's amazing ;)
I have a project called blessed to be a blessings. The picture is down there. If you need more info, let me know your email ;) And it would be great too if I can have 250 people who can donate 25AUD. It will cover all ;)
-My Outreach team. Pray that we got the unity, got the love for one another. There's so many nations in my team: Malaysia, Singapore, USA, Canada, OZ. And pray for our finances as a team. In my team there's 6 people who still need money for outreach. Our finances due is 16th March.
-Strength. It's so intense. I easily get tired. And get a bit stress. Pray for my healthy, so I can receive all the lectures fully.
-Future!! Haha. I dont know why I want you guys to pray for it. But just pray that God will tell me what should I do after DTS ;)

Thanks guys for all the support, all the prayer. God is real. He surprise me a lot.

Love, Tirza

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Matthew 18:19

6 weeks past already. So fast. Can't believe outreach is so soon now!!

 

So, maybe some of you already know where I'm going for outreach. I'm going to China on April, Iceland on May, and back to West Australia on June. This is exciting! Can't wait to jump there, go to church underground in China, see young peoples in Iceland, going to high school teaching in WA, and talking about God with them, see the nations changes.

 

I was freak out last week because I still need my lecture fees. Honestly, yes I freak out. I stand still in God's promise but sometimes I cant make up my mind. So I have my quiet time, and I pray, cry out to God what should I do. And I was reading Matthew recently. So I read it. But this one verse just really stick on me. Matthew 18:19 - “Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven." So I talked to my one on one. And she gives me a challenges!! The challenges is to talk about my finances with 4 students, and all the staff school. I felt so nervous cause I never talk about it before, and ask for a prayer. But when I did it, I felt like it's decrease my pride a lot. I felt so prideful because never give my testimony about how I get here. 1st day of challenges, God give me Psalm 25:9 - He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way. Psalm 25 really stoked for me. I trust Him so I would never be ashamed. And as I talk about my finances, it just open up my self to others more. My faith growing too when I talk about my testimony, it makes me remembering all the things He has done for me, perfect.

 

I need tons of prayer :p

1. Finances, for sure :) I still need 2000AUD for my lecture fees, and 5500AUD for my outreach. It seems so big. But I know God is working with me. I need that money soon. So if you want to be partner with me to reach nations, you can support me through click this one: https://www.ywamperth.org.au/007/payonline.asp. I sent this message to 300 people, if each one of you can support me 25AUD (250.000 rupiah) or maybe more, it would cover all my finances!! So let me know. It would be great to be partner with you guys for this mission for nations.

2. Strength, Peace. I know that God not only provides me in finances, but also in strength and peace here. It's been so crazy, so intense, a lot to learn and to do.

3. Openess. I will share about my testimony to more people, asking them together pray for me.

4. Fundraising!! Yeaaah.. Last week we was cheering the children who doing try-athlon. So hot, so tired, but we got some money for outreach! And will do some cookies selling, food selling, car wash, and anything else that we can do for raising money. Please pray for more creativity ;)

5. Boldness and be brave to telling people about God. Cast out the fear :p

 

Thank you, thank you, guys for every prayer, for every encouragement and for every support. For really give your effort to support me. Love from Perth, Tirza

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Hey guys! I hope everyone have a good day. Thank you guys for all the prayer and support. I just finished my 4th week in DTS. I can’t believe it’s almost a month I left Jakarta!!!

I love Perth. It’s a quiet city if you compare with Jakarta, but it’s really cool. I love the beaches, city, kings park, and I saw kangaroo!

God had been teaching me about hearing His voice, His character, repentance and forgiveness, and this week we learning about intercession and worship. I have had a great time here. Before I get here I thought I already knew all the lectures is. But it’s really shocking me!! There is so many things I’ve learned. Knowing Him deeper and being closer every day. Hear the things that I’ve never thought before like this week we learned about intercession. I know that prayer is important, but I didn’t know why I need to pray. It’s a way for us to communicate and relate with God, to know His thought and hear His voice. My relationship with Him is getting deeper.

We will know where we going for outreach soon. We’re going to Asia or Africa, Europe, and then go to the other part of Australia. It’s gonna be awesome. Preach the gospel and to see the changing of all people life in all over the world. Really seek God and His glory in all over the world.

So I will write down my prayer list. Please pray for:
-finances. Praise God I got 370 AUD. I need 2220 AUD more for lecture fees. If you want to support me and be partner with me to do this mission through supporting me in finances, just click here:https://www.ywamperth.org.au/007/payonline.asp. Who is it for (recipient name): Tirza Pusphita Sari. School payment: Discipleship Training School - Young Peoples. And down the school payment, choose the school fees.
Or if you get confused or want to ask me about anything, just ask me!! :) 
-openess. To be open to God fix the things that I need to fix. To open my heart and mind for everything He speaks to me.
-creativity. I need ideas for my fundraising. And for my work duty here!! As student we have work duty every week days. And I’m in media :) doing the designs, power point, videos, etc. There’s a lot things to do and a lot of creativity in need.
So, thanks guys for always support me and praying for me. I love you guys!! Really a blessings in my life. Thanks thanks!

Blessings for all of you, Tirza

 

Photos: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?id=1358023395&aid=105335!!

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Walk 1 Lap

2nd Week!! Maureen, our speaker, is the leader of DTS. This week is about God's character. I loves all the teaching, and her testimony of her life. She speaking about Trinity. I already knew some, but this week I know much deeper. And I love the worship. Worship is my strength.

But I want to tell you my testimony. I still need 2.590 AUD. And I do pray a lot for it. Doing my quiet time every afternoon in the oval, not too far from our base where I stay. One day in my quiet time. I asked God, how can I get money for my lecture fees. And suddenly I heard a voice said: do walk 1 lap after quiet time. And I did that. When I walked, I felt like God will give me 100 AUD. And I start thinking, maybe the money is in.. the grass!! So I looked around. But not there :p

After that 1 lap of walking, I felt I need to write letters to all my friends. And I did that. I sent to all my friends, on facebook message. To make the story short, one of my friend asked me how can I send you money. And I tell her how. But the best thing is.. she sent me the exact 100 AUD!!

God is faithful.

 

This 3rd week we have repentance and forgiveness lecture. It's gonna be so exciting and can't wait for more life changing :)

 

 

 

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hearing God's voice

so, I'm at Perth now :) thanks for all the prayer and the support!!

This first week we just know our schedule. pretty tight but it's exciting! in lecture we have: Hearing God's voice. The Queen of Sheba do everything to hear Solomon's wisdom (2 Chronicles 9:1-12). he just Solomon. won't you do everything to hear God's voice?

I really know the reasons why I'm going to DTS. I heard He calling me, and I love Him too much just to ignore His call.

but still, I need to fight here :p
would you guys pray for me?:
-finances. okay. I still need 2.590 AUD for my lecture fees. I don't know how to pay it. but just like before. I didn't know how to pay my visa, my flight, but God provide. and I know for this one too, He will provide.
-getting know people here better. we're just like 12 girls in 1 room, haha, and YPDTS is 53 in 1 class. and I'm not really good in talking with new people. just pray that I will be my self.
-to really understand every lecture. it's kinda hard cause English is my 2nd language. and the books that I need to read.
-creativity. I need ideas for my fundraising. and for my journal and everything too.

thank you guys for support and prayer. I really do need that. blessings all over you!!

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what will happen in 2 weeks?

yes, Perth in 2 weeks!! I just booked my ticket!! after waiting for a long time :) I will fly on 6th January and arrived at 7th there! so grateful!! I have my ticket not only for going to Perth, but also for back here, Jakarta!

there's so many things have been happened. and will happen. I really can see how God working in me. love how God really teach me to trust in Him. this week spent well by meeting my best friends and saying goodbye for a while - I'm blessed with every person around me. and will be busy meeting some best friends, family, and packing!!

time flies fast and can't believe in 2 weeks I'll be there. been dreaming this for 2 years, and finally it's real. I watched rapunzel (tangled) and this movie is about dream, I guess. and there's a line on that movie saying: go and find a new dream (after Rapunzel's dream come true). well, I'm going to find a new dream. like after this DTS, what I'm going to do, praying a lot about this.

here's some prayer request!!

-my self.

to get ready to meet some new people *it's a bit hard for me to really get in with some new people :p open my self to received all the changes that God wants in my life. open my heart for whatever God said to me. to get ready for both summer and winter!

-finances.

I still need around $3330. been working hard with the cards and other things, I know God will provide every little things I need!

and, I got this verse: "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go - Joshua 1:9"

thank you so much for your encourages and support. knowing that I'm blessed by each one of you! Jesus loves you and so do I! :)

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be strong and courageous

"Remember the last time you needed help? Not just help with your homework, but HELP. You were at the end of your rope, no more options; you'd done everything and nothing worked. You were confused, afraid, and lonely all at the same time. What do you do when the answers just don't seem to come? Joshua 1:9. God gives two positive commands here - be strong and courageous! Don't be afraid. And then, the promise, "Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” That promise gives you strength to obey the two commands. You can rest in the fact that God promises to help. You are not alone. You may not get help at the exact second you think you need it. But He will help you. He knows exactly how much you can take. He'll be right on time."

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go - Joshua 1:9

This is the EXACT thing I needed.

So, on the 29th November I'm going to booked a ticket for my flight. There's a special price there, an extra flight. I saw that since the 25th maybe. and on the 26th, I'm going to my bank account and transfer my money to my dad's credit card *to book can only use a credit card*. I paid. Then when I arrived home, Daddy just told me that it will take 2 days. so I waited. And my Dad checked it to his credit card on the 29th. he told me that's there. so I go online to booked. I filled all the application. and paid. But.. there's something wrong. the status is: credit card status declined. it's was in "my manage booked". I was shocked. and suddenly *to make it short*, it's not there anymore, on the "my manage booked". so I think, maybe I should do it once more. then I tried. but.. suprised!! the price is getting high (This is crazy!! just in a seconds!!). And i felt like, hopeless. like it's says: you'd done everything and nothing worked. I almost tried, everything!! online just to know the prices. almost every airlines i checked. go to the travel agent. asking prices. but, nothing worked. I get down and stressful about this flight things, honest. I have enough money to book anyway. but I just think that, God want me to wait. it's not the right flight. it's not the right price you need to pay. wait and hold on, Tirza.

so I go to my bed room, start praying and praying (the only thing that you can do when you get down is praying, trust me). God didn't say anything to me. so I walk out. I'm online again, searched for some flights. and put this on my blackberry messenger status: God, help..

and this is silly :p someone just tagged a photo of me. and we just chat there. there's 4 people there *who put their comments on that photo. silly conversation. jokes and jokes. and suddenly it get to a really silly joke. about: "hold on! God is the one who knows you!!", "God really do loves you!!". and me, suddenly, without thinking: "be strong and courageous!!" *it is a famous verse, isn't it? and suddenly like, woops. I think thats for me. and I can't stop thinking about that verse, all night long. it's around 12AM. I can't stop thinking. so I grab my bible *that one from Joy*, there's an explanation bellow the verse. and I got the thing that I exactly need. God is working with jokes :)

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be strong and courageous

"Remember the last time you needed help? Not just help with your homework, but HELP. You were at the end of your rope, no more options; you'd done everything and nothing worked. You were confused, afraid, and lonely all at the same time. What do you do when the answers just don't seem to come? Joshua 1:9. God gives two positive commands here - be strong and courageous! Don't be afraid. And then, the promise, "Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” That promise gives you strength to obey the two commands. You can rest in the fact that God promises to help. You are not alone. You may not get help at the exact second you think you need it. But He will help you. He knows exactly how much you can take. He'll be right on time."

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go - Joshua 1:9

This is the EXACT thing I needed.

So, on the 29th November I'm going to booked a ticket for my flight. There's a special price there, an extra flight. I saw that since the 25th maybe. and on the 26th, I'm going to my bank account and transfer my money to my dad's credit card *to book can only use a credit card*. I paid. Then when I arrived home, Daddy just told me that it will take 2 days. so I waited. And my Dad checked it to his credit card on the 29th. he told me that's there. so I go online to booked. I filled all the application. and paid. But.. there's something wrong. the status is: credit card status declined. it's was in "my manage booked". I was shocked. and suddenly *to make it short*, it's not there anymore, on the "my manage booked". so I think, maybe I should do it once more. then I tried. but.. suprised!! the price is getting high (This is crazy!! just in a seconds!!). And i felt like, hopeless. like it's says: you'd done everything and nothing worked. I almost tried, everything!! online just to know the prices. almost every airlines i checked. go to the travel agent. asking prices. but, nothing worked. I get down and stressful about this flight things, honest. I have enough money to book anyway. but I just think that, God want me to wait. it's not the right flight. it's not the right price you need to pay. wait and hold on, Tirza.

so I go to my bed room, start praying and praying (the only thing that you can do when you get down is praying, trust me). God didn't say anything to me. so I walk out. I'm online again, searched for some flights. and put this on my blackberry messenger status: God, help..

and this is silly :p someone just tagged a photo of me. and we just chat there. there's 4 people there *who put their comments on that photo. silly conversation. jokes and jokes. and suddenly it get to a really silly joke. about: "hold on! God is the one who knows you!!", "God really do loves you!!". and me, suddenly, without thinking: "be strong and courageous!!" *it is a famous verse, isn't it? and suddenly like, woops. I think thats for me. and I can't stop thinking about that verse, all night long. it's around 12AM. I can't stop thinking. so I grab my bible *that one from Joy*, there's an explanation bellow the verse. and I got the thing that I exactly need. God is working with jokes :)

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He's got everything under control

a quick update. not yet book a flight. cause.. hmmm for some reason the price is getting higher everyday. I'm flying on the high season, I know. and somehow, God tells me to wait *the price is getting higher, and God tell me to wait?!!*. I didn't understand. but for sure I know He's got everything under control. "He does everything just right and on time, but people can never completely understand what He is doing - Ecclesiastes 2:16."

so, I want to raise some money for my DTS on January. some friends from the YP who is coming with me just doing their fundraising by selling some things they have, doing photograph, babysitting, make a christmas cake, etc. I'm working now for a company for design, and I still need more to cover all the payment. and I think the things that I can do is doing design. I can do a design from Adobe Photoshop/Illustrator, CorelDraw, FreeHand. you can choose. maybe I can design a christmas card for you guys, or a birthday card, or anything about design. for card is $10 for each *design only* or $15 for card and design. or just let me know the price that you guys want :p that would be great if I can help you and you can help me!! :)

Love,

Tirza

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I got my visa!!

So, like the subject of this message. as some of you guys know. I would go to YPDTS this Januari. I just got my visa!! *screaming: I am finally going!! It's become so real!!* I'm excited about what will goin' on about this 2 months before fly to Perth. and more excited about DTS!! just see my classmate and I think they're cool :p

It's been hard time. the visa's taking a long process and the most complicated one. I listen to Jesus Culture's song: "You are Faithful", over and over again. and big yes, through all the processes He's faithful. somehow when I felt down, then some voice just asked me. where's your faith? so, I want to encourage you guys to keep going to do His calling in your life. keep your faith!

and now, the next step is: FLIGHT!

please pray for it. that I can found the cheapest one *I really hope I will have the cheapest one*. and wisdom to choose the best one for me.

there's some things that I need you guys to pray with me:

-my readiness. I need to fix and doing a lot of things to get ready.

-financial. I think I could pay for the flight to go to Perth. but not yet to back to Indonesia. ahaaaaaaa.. I still want to back to Indonesia!! hehe. And the school fees. first is the lecture fees. still need a lot to be covered. I want to do some fundraising. but I have no idea. some ideas guys? :)

-focus on God not DTS or other things.

-to get courage. so many processes and sometimes I felt discourage. yes, I'm still human. the only thing that makes me stand still is God. no one can understand, but God do understand me. knowing He's always there is the best feeling ever!! :)

so, that's it for now. I will keep you the updates.

love,

Tirza

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@mistydedwards, you are intense! I love it

misty edwards is.. great! I love her sermon. just really, touching me. brainwash. she is passionate with Christ. so, I want you guys to download some of the sermons. I highly recommended the Misty Edwards - The Fasted Lifestyle. I repeat it again, again, and again..

"why do I exist?"

http://www.sjihop.org/audio.php

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when you are outside the comfort zone you will feel alive because you will counting on God every second in your life

hey guys, how are ya doing? so, it's time for updates!! :) well, I just did my medical check up for visa, and it was good! haven't apply yet for visa cause I'm still waiting for the bank statement from one of my relatives. I hope it's not getting too long to wait.. please pray for it.
it's been hard time for me to stand still and go for DTS. so many things happened, so many process happened too. but I got this verse: If you be calm and trust me, you will be strong - Isaiah 30:15. I need to trust, yes.. but I need to be calm too. the hard thing maybe is to be calm. I'm in the counting down for DTS and feel like, it's the first step for me to go to mission field. and I.. hate to leave so many good friends here and my family, my good-job, my great youth group here. been so save here. and I feel kinda afraid to going outside there. but I "Know where you are headed, and you will stay on solid ground - Proverbs 4:26". someone said to me: when you are outside the comfort zone you will feel alive because you will counting on GOD every second in your life. and that's true, so true.
so, please praying for anything mate :) I will always need your prayers.. send me some of your updates! I'd love to pray for you!

Blessings upon you, Tirza

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His time is PERFECT!!

so guys. as you know, I need $100 for deposit and $250.25 for the Overseas Student Health Cover. and God just provide me in everything!! it's quite fast, and I still have a bit more. but here's the thing that I want to share: one day, I checked my bank account. and suddenly God just said this when I looked at that number: You know what. I will give You more than this number right after You paid all the deposit and Overseas Student Health Cover. I just smile and asking myself, how could it be? $350.25 is a quite big number for me. and when I paid it all, it would be much less. I just keep it in my mind and think that it maybe not God that is talking with me. maybe that just me.. and this week. I'm just having my tough time. I'm not passionate in anything. last tuesday everything just be done, and I was going to the bank to paid the rest with my dad, cause I'm using his credit card. so we transfer the money to my dad's account. everything well. but I felt like, I need to check my bank balance. and when I checked, I am shocked. it's more than before. my dad just look at me, and I said that one of my friend just message me that he want to help me. that's true, one of my friend just message me. I was not remembering the promise of God that the number will become more after I paid it all, not become less. cause I think it just me, I don't think that's God's voice. but at night I was going to Senen cause I need to share some word's of God there. and I was on the bus. suddenly all things just like a film in my head. I remember it.. and really felt God's grace all around me. and I shared about this on that night. all things is just clear, I am passionate again!! I just think, what if I paid it faster? or what if I'm not checked it again? See, God is working! and He is faithful. His promise is Yes and Amen! His time is PERFECT!

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He is faithful, He is!!

so guys.. I just received an email that I've been accepted to the Young People's Disciple Training School in YWAM Perth for January 2011. I can't stop smiling when I received it, really.. Maybe for some of you know that it's been 2 years waiting for this DTS. He is faithful.. through so many process, I stand in His promise for me, and finally now ready to go to mission field.
for next it's not getting easier, but I know for sure God is with me.
so, would you guys pray with me?? :)
1. the next step is applying visa. I need $100 for deposit and $250.25 for Overseas Student Health Cover. for the lecture phase around $3530. and for all the etc *so many etc there :p
2. a heart and eyes that fix on God. focus on Him, not on this DTS stuff

I know for sure this 6 months in DTS will changes me, a lot.
And I just want to share some with you guys!! last Saturday, before I received this email, I felt like I'm really down. so many things happened, and it gets me down. and when it was a youth service, on a preaching time, I'm going to toilet and just being there. I need to relax and just being alone. so I'm waiting and waiting.. but at one moment I felt like, okay I'm back to that service. I sited at the behind of the computer's, I operated the computer at that moment. the preaching is so long.. and it comes to an end. he is praying for us. but suddenly he stop. and he started saying: "is there any one of you have a heart for being a full timer?? I would like to pray for you". my heart is beating so hard, am asking: is that me, God?!! and he becomes more specific: for someone that is promising God to be a missionary 1-3 years ago. I'm shocked and I raised half of my hand but I was behind the computer. so he can't see me. but he just kept asking: is there any one of you?!! and finally I raised my hand high. after I raised my hand, he start praying. there's something, not about his prayer, that's touch my heart and suddenly my tears run down. a peace that I know I would go to YPDTS.

so yeah, guys please keep praying for me. that His will be done in my life.

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I should learn to walk.. :)

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He help me, on time

so guys here's some updates! i just got amazed by how God really work on time!

as you guys know, I was working my application. it's not easy. I need a really quiet time to fill them up, so i just went to my friend house to fill it up :p and for the medical check up. we just rejected once, and it felt so hard (honestly). I felt the hard atmosphere. but in the last day before Jeffry (the one who will brought my application straight to Perth, cause he's staffing and left 2nd July), I just got my medical check up!! It's really like, God help me out of this. and for that day, is a very very full day. I didn't have time to go to money changer. but suddenly one of my friend just lend his money. I really do need it that time. cause if i got to pay it with credit card, i think there's a tax there.

so that's all my update for YPDTS. i need your pray that God may show me where I should go :) and let His will be done, not mine. God bless y'll!

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It start now! :)

So hmmm! I just graduate from school last week. Great! Here's some updates!

I've been thinking about DTS Application. And I'm asking some of my friends. They said I have to print it out soon. After I know I'm graduate from school of course.

So yeah.. Last Friday I just print it out. I don't know why it feels like, I really need to print it today.

And all seems like: okay I have time now to print it.

So I print it out..

Let me explain. I want Him to show me every step that I should take, specific. Like: "when I should print my Application. when I should pay for registration. when I should fill the Application". Yap, I need He direct my way always. That's all about surrendering my life.

So, I just print them out. Even it seems need a lot of sacrifice. I need to go to (maybe) 4 stores to print, but it's not working. And in the last store, I just found it. But it's so expensive. But something strong keep telling me: I need to print it today. So yes, I print it.

At night, I give it to my friend so she can fill the Friend Reference. And suddenly she said to me: hey I just thinking of it this afternoon.

Yes I was talked with her like 4 months ago about this stuff. But just once. And I don't think she will remember it or yeah, thinking of it.

And I suddenly know, yes this is the confirmation that I should print it today. We're think of it in 1-same-day! And I'm amazed how God really talk to me, and direct my ways.

So, let's see what's going next (I am excited!!!). And now I try to fill the DTS Application. Pray for me :) Blessings!

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SOULS

So, what do you think when you heard about "souls"?

Well, let me tell you what happened with my life lately. Today is my last day to go to school. And it's mean, I don't have much time with my friends like before.

Last Sunday, I go to network meeting. And some of them sharing their life. They are GREAT! They are giving their life for souls. And they are my friends. I just thinking, what's goin' on now in my life? I am too busy. For study, for church, for something-that-not-too-important.

Last Monday, I gave my brochure about Gift (8th Anniversary of Youth Society) to one of my friend. And suddenly, all my friends asking me about this brochure. Just a little thing I do, just obeying Him that day.

And today, I don't know why I am feeling sad. Maybe it because I have to say "goodbye-for-a-while" with some of my friends. But.. Maybe not that.

I felt sad when we're gathering on 1 class. So full. Full of a senior highschool students that will graduate soon. I just remembering the first time I go to school, and see this "crowded".

And at night, I go to prayer meeting. God has talk alot!

What I am doing for this 3 years on high school? Where's my fruits? Am I doing my best?

Nope. And I feel so sorry with that. I am too busy. I am too selfish. I am too shy.

I'm not giving my best for this 3 years. I'm not talking enough about Jesus with them.

But hey.. I have to move and move on. I have to work more for souls.

Guys, giving your best before it's too late. Before you regret it. Preach the Gospel as much as you can!

souls: love them as well as you can, spend with them as much as you have, share with them as many as you have

James 2:14 - My brothers and sisters, if people say they have faith, but do nothing, their faith is worth nothing. Can faith like that save them?

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even with eyes closed, we pedalling back, and let everything in His hands..

got this messages from my youth pastor.

"even with eyes closed,  we pedalling back, and let everything in His hands.."


that's what I'm doing now. with my eyes closed, believing in His promises. and see it with a faith..

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even with eyes closed, we pedalling back, and let everything in His hands..

Got this messages from my youth pastor.

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"even with eyes closed,  we pedalling back, and let everything in His hands.."

that's what I'm doing now. with my eyes closed, believing in His promises. and see it with a faith..

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Cycling with GOD-full version:p

Got this messages from my youth pastor.

"even with eyes closed,  we pedalling back, and let everything in His hands.." that's what I'm doing now. with my eyes closed, believing in His promises. and see it with a faith..

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"nothing beats the feeling when you see that people change through you"

"nothing beats the feeling when you see that people change through you" I really do love this quote! reminds me of that outreach-ing and stuff. really makes me missing my outreach time.. reminds me of all people that I love, people that I not seeing their changing YET. especially my close people, and my best friend. sometimes, I can't see it. almost give up. but really in the deep of my heart, I still believe My God working that all things. shot me? yes. how about you? do you still having a heart full of compassion and mercy for others? think about it :)

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new phone ihiiiy!

I'm not going to be proud about this new phone ha ha! it's all about God's promises!

I've been praying for some music player about a year. I need that for my quiet time. emmm, God never give me an answer. so I just wait..

But this January, when I'm praying about this again. God just show up and said: ok, wait till February.

And suddenly, my phone breaks. I can't turn it on. so I came to my father's friend who have a service center for phone. And on my way, I see this phone, the phone that's with me now :)

I said to mom, it's pretty cool ya? She's silent. and somehow, I just asking about this phone, and it's a normal-price phone but still a cool one! so i just have a little conversation with dad and mom. and now, it's with me!

I'm talking about God's promise. He's soooo real! I'm asking for a MP3 or something like that, but God just give me a new phone! He gives me the besssssst! yeeeeeeeeeeah! I see His promise has been fulfilled. next: brother and YPDTS YWAM PERTH 2011! I'm coming soon!

here's some pictures from my new phone, enjoy!

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my 'toughandfullofsurprise' year. in every year I'll praise You!

I came to my Junior Church group. They have a celebration for Christmas.

To make this story short, the youth pastor sing this song: Casting Crows - Who Am I.

and here's some lyrics: "I am a flower quickly fading. Here today and gone tomorrow. A wave tossed in the ocean. Vapor in the wind. Still You hear me when I'm calling. Lord, You catch me when I'm falling. And You've told me who I am. I am Yours.."

this 2009 is not a easy year for me definitely. so much pain, from the end of 2008 till now. I can say in every aspect. family, school, future, friends, love, emmm everything.

but when I heard: I am the flower quickly fading. yes I am. so easy to fall, so easy to get tired. but still You CATCH me when I'm FALLING.

realize what God have done for my 2009. so struggling to stand still. but see what God gives to me!

maybe if i'm not passing that 'hurtpainfulloftears'time, i'm not gonna be this STRONG. I'm not in this 'level'. I'm not going to Malay. I'm not knowing what God wants in my life.

really, I enjoy everytime I fall. cause I know God's my only strength and He helps me. and in the end I will know, I become STRONGER

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my 'toughandfullofsurprise' year. in every year I'll praise You!

I came to my Junior Church group. They have a celebration for Christmas.

To make this story short, the youth pastor sing this song: Casting Crows - I am Yours.

and here's some lyrics: "I am the flower quickly fading. here today and gone tomorrow. still You hear me when I'm calling, Lord You catch me when I'm falling. And You told me who I am.. I am Yours"

this 2009 is not a easy year for me definitely. so much pain, from the end of 2008 till now. I can say in every aspect. family, school, future, friends, love, emmm everything.

but when I heard: I am the flower quickly fading. yes I am. so easy to fall, so easy to get tired. but still You CATCH me when I'm FALLING.

realize what God have done for my 2009. so struggling to stand still. but see what God gives to me!

maybe if i'm not passing that 'hurtpainfulloftears'time, i'm not gonna be this STRONG. I'm not in this 'level'. I'm not going to Malay. I'm not knowing what God wants in my life.

really, I enjoy everytime I fall. cause I know God's my only strength and He helps me. and in the end I will know, I become STRONGER

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my 'toughandfullofsurprise' year. in every year I'll praise You!

I came to my Junior Church group. They have a celebration for Christmas.

To make this story short, the youth pastor sing this song: Casting Crows - I am Yours.

and here's some lyrics: "I am a flower quickly fading. Here today and gone tomorrow. A wave tossed in the ocean. Vapor in the wind. Still You hear me when I'm calling. Lord, You catch me when I'm falling. And You've told me who I am. I am Yours, I am Yours"

this 2009 is not a easy year for me definitely. so much pain, from the end of 2008 till now. I can say in every aspect. family, school, future, friends, love, emmm everything.

but when I heard: I am the flower quickly fading. yes I am. so easy to fall, so easy to get tired. but still You CATCH me when I'm FALLING.

realize what God have done for my 2009. so struggling to stand still. but see what God gives to me!

maybe if i'm not passing that 'hurtpainfulloftears'time, i'm not gonna be this STRONG. I'm not in this 'level'. I'm not going to Malay. I'm not knowing what God wants in my life.

really, I enjoy everytime I fall. cause I know God's my only strength and He helps me. and in the end I will know, I become STRONGER

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31 October 2009

update for my plan to YWAM :)

really realize God's heart for me. so I have a little promise to God that I would give Him an 'answer' about my next plan. my future, my school, my everything. and I said: "the end of October I will give You my answer. but please, give me any sign. give me passion. give me something that can make me know, I'm not going to the wrong way." so yeah, here's the story..

I think 31 October is the end of October, right? But I really forgot that day. I forgot about my promise. my day went well. until I came to my prayer meeting before my youth service start. and God spoke to me: "do you remember what date is it?". I said: "uuum, yaaah of course! 31 October, right?". and He's silent. and I start to think, what God? for a while, I'm hardly thinking what God's mean? but then I realized, my promise. so I start to pray and talk to God. and remembering all thing that happened before this day.

a week before that day, i went to a meeting wit h my friends. and 1 of them from YWAM. he starts to talk about God's miracle while He's doing His DTS. it went well. and every miracle really makes my heart said: I WANNA GO THERE!
and about univ, it's not in my heart I know.

so I decided on that prayer meeting that I would go to YWAM!
and I went home, I opened my laptop.
I opened my facebook, my twitter, my msn..
and last, my email.

I'm totally shocked that I receive this email..

Greetings from YWAM Perth!‏
From:     Youth With A Mission Perth (Partners@ywamperth.org.au)
    Medium riskYou may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as junk
Sent:     Saturday, October 31, 2009 6: 23 PM
To:     partners@ywamperth.org.au
Attachments:     2 attachments | Download all attachments (458.9 KB)
    image001.gif (7.7 KB), celebrati...pdf (451.2 KB)

It's about 4 months they're not giving me an updates and on that day, exactly on that day, they sent me one!

He's never too late :)

Anyways, Merry Christmas 2009 guyss! :)

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don't be afraid, Tirza

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don't be afraid, Tirza

okay finally i wrote this post. sooo, this is what i felt everytime i passed every boarding check.

you know what, my name on passport and my name on ticket is different. and i just knew it when i passed the 1st boarding check. one of my friend just told me that's her fault :p

so yeah, i felt worries everytime i have to passed that boarding check.

but i remember that day before i go to airport and doing a lot of stuff, i just pray in early morning and i just said this to God: Dad, please give me at least one verse for me to go to Malay :) and He gives me like a verse that so many words of: don't be afraid. i started asking God, what's this? and i think uhh maybe this is for the ghost thing (cause we're going to their village and so many spiritual things there), or maybe for the camp, or maybe for the Orang Asli people.

but when my friend told me about the ticket(s), i just realize that's really for me.

everytime i wait for the check, i pray alooooooooot. but i never felt like God will leave me. so when my turn come, i just said this: let Your will be done.

that's totally amazed me. 15 checked i passed and here i am! God really makes them 'blind', haha :)

thank's God, You amazed me (again)

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1st Mission Trip!

KLCC! Beatifull KLCC with vinny :)


We made it for the camp people :)


play play play :)


team pic! perfect team!


we need love.. we need God :)