my 'toughandfullofsurprise' year. in every year I'll praise You!

I came to my Junior Church group. They have a celebration for Christmas.

To make this story short, the youth pastor sing this song: Casting Crows - Who Am I.

and here's some lyrics: "I am a flower quickly fading. Here today and gone tomorrow. A wave tossed in the ocean. Vapor in the wind. Still You hear me when I'm calling. Lord, You catch me when I'm falling. And You've told me who I am. I am Yours.."

this 2009 is not a easy year for me definitely. so much pain, from the end of 2008 till now. I can say in every aspect. family, school, future, friends, love, emmm everything.

but when I heard: I am the flower quickly fading. yes I am. so easy to fall, so easy to get tired. but still You CATCH me when I'm FALLING.

realize what God have done for my 2009. so struggling to stand still. but see what God gives to me!

maybe if i'm not passing that 'hurtpainfulloftears'time, i'm not gonna be this STRONG. I'm not in this 'level'. I'm not going to Malay. I'm not knowing what God wants in my life.

really, I enjoy everytime I fall. cause I know God's my only strength and He helps me. and in the end I will know, I become STRONGER

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my 'toughandfullofsurprise' year. in every year I'll praise You!

I came to my Junior Church group. They have a celebration for Christmas.

To make this story short, the youth pastor sing this song: Casting Crows - I am Yours.

and here's some lyrics: "I am the flower quickly fading. here today and gone tomorrow. still You hear me when I'm calling, Lord You catch me when I'm falling. And You told me who I am.. I am Yours"

this 2009 is not a easy year for me definitely. so much pain, from the end of 2008 till now. I can say in every aspect. family, school, future, friends, love, emmm everything.

but when I heard: I am the flower quickly fading. yes I am. so easy to fall, so easy to get tired. but still You CATCH me when I'm FALLING.

realize what God have done for my 2009. so struggling to stand still. but see what God gives to me!

maybe if i'm not passing that 'hurtpainfulloftears'time, i'm not gonna be this STRONG. I'm not in this 'level'. I'm not going to Malay. I'm not knowing what God wants in my life.

really, I enjoy everytime I fall. cause I know God's my only strength and He helps me. and in the end I will know, I become STRONGER

See and download the full gallery on posterous

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my 'toughandfullofsurprise' year. in every year I'll praise You!

I came to my Junior Church group. They have a celebration for Christmas.

To make this story short, the youth pastor sing this song: Casting Crows - I am Yours.

and here's some lyrics: "I am a flower quickly fading. Here today and gone tomorrow. A wave tossed in the ocean. Vapor in the wind. Still You hear me when I'm calling. Lord, You catch me when I'm falling. And You've told me who I am. I am Yours, I am Yours"

this 2009 is not a easy year for me definitely. so much pain, from the end of 2008 till now. I can say in every aspect. family, school, future, friends, love, emmm everything.

but when I heard: I am the flower quickly fading. yes I am. so easy to fall, so easy to get tired. but still You CATCH me when I'm FALLING.

realize what God have done for my 2009. so struggling to stand still. but see what God gives to me!

maybe if i'm not passing that 'hurtpainfulloftears'time, i'm not gonna be this STRONG. I'm not in this 'level'. I'm not going to Malay. I'm not knowing what God wants in my life.

really, I enjoy everytime I fall. cause I know God's my only strength and He helps me. and in the end I will know, I become STRONGER

See and download the full gallery on posterous

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31 October 2009

update for my plan to YWAM :)

really realize God's heart for me. so I have a little promise to God that I would give Him an 'answer' about my next plan. my future, my school, my everything. and I said: "the end of October I will give You my answer. but please, give me any sign. give me passion. give me something that can make me know, I'm not going to the wrong way." so yeah, here's the story..

I think 31 October is the end of October, right? But I really forgot that day. I forgot about my promise. my day went well. until I came to my prayer meeting before my youth service start. and God spoke to me: "do you remember what date is it?". I said: "uuum, yaaah of course! 31 October, right?". and He's silent. and I start to think, what God? for a while, I'm hardly thinking what God's mean? but then I realized, my promise. so I start to pray and talk to God. and remembering all thing that happened before this day.

a week before that day, i went to a meeting wit h my friends. and 1 of them from YWAM. he starts to talk about God's miracle while He's doing His DTS. it went well. and every miracle really makes my heart said: I WANNA GO THERE!
and about univ, it's not in my heart I know.

so I decided on that prayer meeting that I would go to YWAM!
and I went home, I opened my laptop.
I opened my facebook, my twitter, my msn..
and last, my email.

I'm totally shocked that I receive this email..

Greetings from YWAM Perth!‏
From:     Youth With A Mission Perth (Partners@ywamperth.org.au)
    Medium riskYou may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as junk
Sent:     Saturday, October 31, 2009 6: 23 PM
To:     partners@ywamperth.org.au
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    image001.gif (7.7 KB), celebrati...pdf (451.2 KB)

It's about 4 months they're not giving me an updates and on that day, exactly on that day, they sent me one!

He's never too late :)

Anyways, Merry Christmas 2009 guyss! :)

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don't be afraid, Tirza

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don't be afraid, Tirza

okay finally i wrote this post. sooo, this is what i felt everytime i passed every boarding check.

you know what, my name on passport and my name on ticket is different. and i just knew it when i passed the 1st boarding check. one of my friend just told me that's her fault :p

so yeah, i felt worries everytime i have to passed that boarding check.

but i remember that day before i go to airport and doing a lot of stuff, i just pray in early morning and i just said this to God: Dad, please give me at least one verse for me to go to Malay :) and He gives me like a verse that so many words of: don't be afraid. i started asking God, what's this? and i think uhh maybe this is for the ghost thing (cause we're going to their village and so many spiritual things there), or maybe for the camp, or maybe for the Orang Asli people.

but when my friend told me about the ticket(s), i just realize that's really for me.

everytime i wait for the check, i pray alooooooooot. but i never felt like God will leave me. so when my turn come, i just said this: let Your will be done.

that's totally amazed me. 15 checked i passed and here i am! God really makes them 'blind', haha :)

thank's God, You amazed me (again)

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1st Mission Trip!

KLCC! Beatifull KLCC with vinny :)


We made it for the camp people :)


play play play :)


team pic! perfect team!


we need love.. we need God :)