I love You

It used to be darkness
Without you I
I lived my life in blindness
But now I am found

And I'll sing, sing I love you so
And I'll sing
Because the world can't take away
Your love

Found me in weakness
Broken
You came to me in kindness
And now I live

I'll give my life for you Lord
For all you've done


sing - hillsong

really like there's none like Your love God.
i learn something from my best friend. she got a very very hard problems with her boyfriend. she just called and text me. and her boyfriend called me too. they both falling in love so deep. but they have a big big problems. i just said : the focus is not your love, but what's God says to you. i don't know are they understand or not. but at least, i prayed for them. and i just heard this song : there's none like Your love. really God, there's none like You amazing love! even a boyfriend, or friends, or family, they will leave me. but You're not =]

i really can't explain about Your love. from dark to be light, that's crazy! how i love You Lord...

I love You

transformer =]

25 October 2008
so, today I lost my on of my glasses! The left side, that’s crazy! I just sleepover in Bena’s house. Cause on that day, we will celebrate our Youth Fest! And we will working like a whole day! I just got back home-I mean Bena’s house-at 2 AM! Decoration and other stuff, I felt so tired. And today, I lost my glasses. I don’t know how come I lost it! I just put it on the stairs, near me and my bag. And it’s gone! I don’t know where’s the glasses. But, I’m so sad cause at that day, so many things will happen. And I can’t see anything? Ohh…
so yeah I just go to Youth Fest with no glasses, I’m minus 5. I really really can’t see anything! But yeah I have fun.
So at that day, the bules will coming! To the concert at 5 PM! New Zealand team with me a whole day to help me, and then Sunshine Coast team come too. And then Perth team! Like around 4, I just put all of my stuff at the chairs to booking the chairs for the bules.
And Youth Fest is sooo cool! The concert is perfect! I really miss that moment, see all the youth gathering to praise and worshipping God! That’s really awesome!
And yeah, I just thinking I want to sleepover in Santy-my Youth leader-apartement. But… Pet just text me!
p e t
25-Oct-08 22:15
Ha ha punch punch .. Ten points i win.. can you guess where I am now?
Pet
I just opened the details, and I see the number is Indonesian! I just jump and jump. Vinny just watching me and I tell her what happened. Actually, she text me at 20:03. but my battery is low, so I turn it off when the concert goin’. I’ve tried call Pet 2 or 3 times, she’s busy. And then she called me. I just like, so shocked! That’s surprise! She didn’t tell me, sooo cruel!
But when I back to Fredrick car, vinny just ask me :
“do you bring your transformer?”
“yes of course! I always bring that!”
“check!”
and I check my bag. No, not there. And I don’t know where my transformer!
“I see you put it to the chairs when you booking the chairs.”
“ah? I can’t remember that? I just remember, I put my jacket, my book, my bible, my bottle, and my bag. Are you sure?”
“yeah I saw that.”
I called all my friends, maybe they know where’s my transformer.
But no one know. I’m so sad and we’re going to Youth Fest’s place again. but we can’t search it. It’s too late. 11.45 PM.
So the security tell me to come tomorrow at 7 in the morning. Okay…
And I can’t sleep. I called Sharon, and bena. I really feel guilty. Cause it’s not mine, but Petrina’s transformer! And I lost it! I don’t know how I tell Pet about it. Yeah tomorrow I’ll meet Pet.
But I try to sleep. and 6 AM I wake up. And I pray: God, if You want to take it, just take it…
7.30 AM – the security tell me to wait until 9 AM. Argh!
I wait until 9. and I search it. But nothing, I can’t found it. And I tried to go to my church. But it’s not there too. So I just give up. And I go to Fredrick’s church and I meet Chin – the Perth team. Until 12 PM. And I go to Grand Indonesia – cause I meet Pet at 2 PM and I want to buy a new transformer. But I can’t found the great one, sigh…
And I just come, Pet with her father. She’s so different ha ha!
And Pet’s father just left. And we meet Joy too!
And at that day, Amanda just arrive in Jakarta too. So we called Amanda. She’s with Sam and Didi. And they come to Grand Indonesia.
After Joy, Amanda, Didi, and Sam left, I just with Pet. And I tried to say that. –I almost cry hahaha!
She said : don’t buy a new one, use your money to transform Indonesia and go to the nations. hahaha!
But I remember, at the worship time in Youth Fest, I just said to God, take it all from me. So yeah, He take the transformer. I’m sad but I’m okay. I just miss the transformer, and I feel so guilty. but i'm okay =]

anyway, i'm the transformer now!

New Zealand team =]

I do I miss you guys!
The farewell is awesome, makes me crying soooo bad!
They wash my feet, that’s crazy! But really, you guys amazing! and you eat a little of my feet and my hand, hahaha! And doing holy kiss with hans, haha. Don’t be so crazy!
About this team, I really learn so many things! Hearing God’s voice and obeying Him, recon, how I see my leader and some of my friends coming and join with us, the precious praise and worship time – lead me to the cross, famous one, wonderful maker = their favorite songs, be crazy girl ha ha, loving people, great great farewell time with papanggo’s people, the garbage thing – argh crazy Betty and Sandra! They just put me on the garbage after Youth Fest!, crazy Indonesian wedding, being closer and closer, and for the 1st time I crying in front of the bules hahaha!, when I go with Perth, they always says : traitor! Hahaha, they loves me so much.
All the conversation, crazy snowboarder, the dream 2 years ago, the sugar coffee thing – Betty, I know you did it!, my 1st time to translate the preaching – until I lost my voice – too fast Jordan!, going with you guys a whole day – our second day – I really miss to speak in Bahasa at that time, Sandra and Lauren Birthday at Snoop’s Pizza haha!, futsal time every Sunday or Monday haha.
I do I miss you guys, I love you! Thanks for teaching me so many things. I know, I’ll meet you guys someday, somewhere… thanks for the very very precious time, I love you guys…

Isaiah 41 : 8-10

At that night, I just skipped my cell group, again. ha ha… I don’t know why, I must go to GIA!
That night is the last night cell group from Perth team. Cause it just for 6 weeks, the training. And it’s about Lordship! That cool…
And the coolest thing is, Anna just give our time to have a great time with God. We can do anything, crying, worshiping, jumping, standing, or yeah… everything that we want!
And the music start! This is Our God…


Your grace is enough
More than I need
And your word I will believe
I wait for you
Draw near again
And your spirit make me new

And i will fall at your feet
I will fall at your feet
And i will worship you here

Your presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By your spirit i am free

And i will fall at your feet
I will fall at your feet
And i will worship you here

Freely you gave it all for us
Surrendered your life upon that cross
Great is your love
Poured out for all
This is our God

Lifted on high from death to life
Forever our God is glorified
Sovereign king
Rescued the world
This is our God

And i will fall at your feet
I will fall at your feet
And i will worship you here

And i will fall at your feet
I will fall at your feet
And i will worship you here

Freely you gave it all for us
S urrendered your life upon that cross
Great is your love
Poured out for all
This is our God

Lifted on high from death to life
Forever out God is glorified
Sovereign king
Rescued the world
This is our God


I just stand, and I opened the bible. I said to Lord, I don’t know how to make it real God, how to go to DTS? I don’t have any money and You know, it’s a big number. How can I make it real? I don’t want my father and my mother work hard for it. And He just speak right to me :
Isaiah 41 : 8-10 =
8. but you, O Israel, my servant, Jacob, whom I have choosen, you descendants of Abraham my friend,
9. I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said , ‘You are my servant’ ; I have chosen you and have not rejected you.
10. so do not fear, for I am with you ; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you ; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
And the film – I mean I just remember all things happened. All the verses. All His voice. All His peace and joy, when I talked with my mom. When I realized He use me to be a coordinator, even I’m still 16 years old! when I see salvation, healing, with my eyes! When I turn back and I falling in love so deep with Him! When I know Philippians 3:7 is true! when I choose to leave all my sins and He helps me! When I loves Him and I want to hear the worship songs every time – when I was a child, I hate Christian Songs! So bad! My dad is a pastor. So every time he turn on the Gospel songs, I turn it off. Ha ha! So funny… and now? hahaha…
When I realized I can speak in English now! when I see the people, I feel I want talk with them! Honestly, when I was a child I lived in Hong Kong for 4 years. And I speak English and Mandarin at school, and Indonesian at home. But when I back to Indonesia, i don’t have any friends. Cause I’m so quite and I don’t like to talking too much. and my teacher just called my mom to push me to play with the other and try to speak. And the silly thing is, I don’t know what is ‘ayah’ mean! Ayah means father. My teacher just laugh. And I cried on the way back home. I don’t want to speak too much…
But see me now! its because His love, His faithfulness! He fix all my heart, my broken heart. And I can speak now, in Bahasa and in English. That’s awesome!
I never imagine I can be like this. I really can’t imagine I’ll crying when I worship Him! Stupid things yeah, but that’s soo cool! I always miss my time when I pray and I worship Him until I cry and bow down on my knees. Yes I’m amazed by You, Lord. How You love me…
He’s amazing, I’m full with His love. And I really cant hide it to share it to all the people in the earth! They must know about it! I know my heart for them, whose don’t know who’s Jesus.
And yes, I loves Him. I love my Lord, my father, my best friend, my righteousness, my bride groom, my every thing…

DTS argh!

I want go to DTS – that’s crazy I know.
Lately, I have a argument with my dad and my mom. They start asking me, how? Why? And what you’re gonna do for your DTS? They have a big worries. But I cant say anything. I just said, please just believe me. If Jesus really want me to go for the nations and for DTS, I’ll go! I don’t know why I have a big faith now. cause so many times, He give me the answer.
If I’m not going to DTS, I think I can be a missionary too. But teteh santy – my youth leader – have says about this :
Maybe if we’re not going to DTS, we can be a missionary too. But, DTS is important too. Cause in DTS, you will learn so many things. And DTS will set your life daily. Like a quite time with God, have a great relationship with Him. Like you really really will have so many times with God. And the world ‘can not touch’ you. Like the television, internet things, and so many stuff.
Yes I want my daily life is just for Jesus. I want to be a disciple, before I go to the nations. that’s why I need DTS.
I want to learn, and apply all of those things in my life. And I know 7000 dolar - 70 Juta rupiah it’s a big big big number, just for 6 months! Maybe I’ll work hard for it. But I’m fine, I know I have to pay it. It’s not easy.
YPDTS 2011, I hope soo. I graduate on July 2010. actually, I want go with Hans and Sam, they’re going on 2010. and Hans wanna go to YP too. But YP just open on January. So I can not go on 2010. that’s so fast, I know. I just have 6 months to work? Or yeah I still don’t know. but I cant wait until I graduate! I cant wait to go to the nations!
So yeah guys, please pray for me…
Bless you all!

2 Samuel 22:33-34

I’m in the proccess to the next level now. I just feel like, some people judges me a lot. I think about it almost every night. Am I wrong?
I never think my best friend would judges me like that. At that time I felt like, I’m drop. I cant stop asking, why? But Psalm 56:1-4 give me a strength.
And 2 Samuel 22:33-34. that’s so powerful!

I love my Jesus more than anything!


Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost
In all you are

And I would give the world to tell Your story
Cause I know that You've called me
I know that You've called me
I've lost myself for good within Your promise
I won't hide it
I won't hide it

Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go to the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For You alone are the Son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
You are God

-to the ends of the earth


His love overtaking all my heart. His love is unfailing. I feel joy when I’m with Him alone. And I cant hide it…

Last Sunday, my friend text me. He knows my problems. he said, some of my friends don’t like that people. And I said : don’t judges them all. If you judges them, we’re same with them.
I’m drop again. at that time, I felt like : why I’m not judges them? They all judges me a lot. Why I must take care of them all? But I just kept it inside.
But, yeah. in the evening Jordan preaching at Viny’s church. And I translate him. I don’t want but, God tell me to do that! So yeah, the topic is : our Job. I can’t understand anything when I open the notes, ha ha. And anita help me-thank’s anita! I still not realize that’s topic is for me! I realize that when I translate Jordan. At that time I felt Jesus give me the answer.
1st-our Job just loving God, and people!
2st-to judges someone, its not our Job.

Never too late, never too late =]

And I remember something. When I just talking with Amanda about my life when we go back to apartement.
At that time, I ask God : Why God place me in that church? why God called me to go outreach when I’m being so closed with them all? Why He not called me when the 1st wave?
And He said : I want you to change your church, that’s why I place you there. I want you to being closed 1st, cause I know you will complete my plans to change your church.

I just want to obey now. I know this is the process for me to change my home sweet home. Actually, this 2 months I felt like, I’m not comfort anymore at my church. But, don’t worry. I’ll never leave them all.

Hmmm, I wanna say sorry if I write it all. I just wanna share about Him in my life. He more than just wonderful!

He really take care of my hearth. Never too late. I love Him, my Dear Father =]