rise up!

Okay, to be honest. I’m focus with my problems lately. Not focus on God’s promise, but my life and problems. I stop going to slums, and I hate that! I just realize I hate being home and doing NOTHING.

I hate that I can’t ‘feel’ Him right here, right now. There’s something that separated me with His love, and I hate that! I hate that I can’t feel His heartbeat again. I hate to be lazy and just sleep in my holiday time. I want go, I want go!

Sigh. Yes, so many problems since December 2008, since all the bules gone. I don’t know why. But I know He wants me to go to the next level.

So, here I am. I don’t want to be a weak girl, weak ‘Tirza’. Who stop doing ministry to the slums and just thinking about her problems.

Yes, I’ll rise up!

lady in waiting

Have you guys read ‘lady in waiting?’ hahahaha. I just bought it 1 week ago, and I almost have a half way to finish. I think I have to read that book. Yes, that love ‘thing’ really eat me up. You can fall in love like crazy. But you and I have to know the truth that no one else can compares His love. That no one else satisfied me like His love. No one! I can’t get that perfect love with my future husband. Just only in Him. I realize that God wants me to be a wise Bride for Him. And to be a wise Bride of God, I have to pursuing a holiness and purity. I like this one:

Are they calls you ‘nerds’ or something bad cause you try to pursuing holiness and purity? Let them call you anything, as long as God calls you faithful. 1 Corinthians 4:10

And that’s really touched my heart deeply.
And some questions keep surrounding in my head,



Will you cost anything, for God calls you faithful?

when it's really about love...

I just read 1 Corinthians 13 and I got this note:

If your relationship is about love, then jealousy can’t be part of it. True love is not jealous. Somehow we’ve confused this and begun to think that if you love someone, you’re supposed to act jealous and possessive. Love is about serving, selflessness and caring. Arrogance and jealousy are for the insecure. Learning to love and trust someone means that you don’t worry about who he talks to, or who’s he in the same room with. If your guy isn’t trustworthy, then he’s definitely not the one for you. Start friendship instead of dating. That way you can spend time with different people until you find the one who lines up with your beliefs and values, the one you have fun with, the one you love, the one you trust completely. The possibility for boyfriends will come and go. Commit to having holy courtship and let God bring the one he has chosen for you.

I love it all, and it’s all is true!
But the most is:

When it’s really about love, jealously will lose out and trust will win…

Dang! I got the answer!

best.friend

Something that makes me happy for this week -- yeah except all that problems and stuff -- is a simple prayer from Bena. I have known her like, 2 years. And I know she’s a phlegmatic person. She’s not like, a caring person. She’s not a person that always can express her feelings.
She just turned to 18th last Sunday, 12 April 2009. And I just give her a simple scrapbook, because she’s going to her university next year and it’s a little far from here, from Kelapa Gading. And we just talked about it, she will live there. And not much time we have after that. She’ll busy with her university and stuff, and me too -- next year is my last year for high school. And, I’m sad. Being far away from best friend is bad and sad. And we realize that. So, for this birthday she wants something that can she remember all the time. And I make that one scrapbook. So many pictures our friendship, and our youth group. And her dance, her dog – benza, her family, and many things I’ve wrote for her. To give her strength when she’s weak, and just to reminds her to our Father God. She can bring that scrapbook to be with her when she’s far away from family and friends and benza.
And last Saturday, in our youth there’s a time for us to pray each other. And I prayed for her, she prayed for me. And something that makes me glad, and shocked, when she said in her prayer: thanks God for Tirza, my best friend, who always being a good friend for me. The one who always bring me back to You.
And she pray for my mission too, and all for my purpose life. That’s a simple prayer that really really breaks my heart. Really touch my heart. I just realize that every friendship needs that prayer. Maybe I’m shocked because she’s not like that person who can say that thing. And it’s really healed my heart.
We’re good now, and we still learning. And sometimes, we need to fighting each other to be closer. Ha ha ha!
But You still my closest friend, Father God :)
Thanks God, for everything that have you given to me. For every each person that You put in my life. They’re amazing.

everything

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVJqRLU3J0I


Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place
where I find peace, again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light, to my soul.
You are my purpose, you're everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You still my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better, any better than this.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?






I always crying when I see this video, thanks Daddy