rise up!

Okay, to be honest. I’m focus with my problems lately. Not focus on God’s promise, but my life and problems. I stop going to slums, and I hate that! I just realize I hate being home and doing NOTHING.

I hate that I can’t ‘feel’ Him right here, right now. There’s something that separated me with His love, and I hate that! I hate that I can’t feel His heartbeat again. I hate to be lazy and just sleep in my holiday time. I want go, I want go!

Sigh. Yes, so many problems since December 2008, since all the bules gone. I don’t know why. But I know He wants me to go to the next level.

So, here I am. I don’t want to be a weak girl, weak ‘Tirza’. Who stop doing ministry to the slums and just thinking about her problems.

Yes, I’ll rise up!